How to feel like shit during sex

This post has to do with why I ended my "open relationship" with "Fred." Fred lives out of town. Fred and I have been hooking up for the past couple years, but more frequently in the last 6 months. We officially dated for 1 week. We ended our relationship by him telling me "I just don't think I like you." Great... Well, I didn't believe him after I was up visiting him a few weeks later because he still wanted to hook up with me!

So Fred came to visit me a couple weekends ago and of course stayed at my house. Thursday night we made out and it was decent. I always get kind of bored kissing him because he doesn't seem to get into it. It's weird. Then Friday I had to work/go to class so I met him at a friend's house where there was the dinner party. We drank lots of wine and ended up talking about our "relationship." So, on Friday he says he likes me, but wants to play the field (what he had been saying all along). I'm like, "But you said you didn't like me!" And he says "Oh, I said that oooonnneee tiiiime..." like I was crazy for still dwelling on that. I'm like, "What the fuck? You said you DID NOT like me; it doesn't matter how many times you said it!" So we established that I know we won't be in a relationship because he wants to explore his sexuality. He feels like he is a late bloomer and needs to do that before he commits to anyone. But he doesn't ever hook up with anyone!!!

So, Saturday we hung out in my bed for a while, rode our bikes around the town, and went to a party with our friend. It was a cocktail party, so we were in costume and decided to go to a bar after since we were dressed up. We were SO drunk and on bike. Then Fred said we should hold hands while we ride. Of course we crashed and got hurt. So, we went home and went to bed. Then Sunday we watched a movie, but he put his arm around me! It's so weird. I know he just wants to have his cake and eat it, too, which makes me mad, but I keep going along with it. Ugh.

So he left and also came back into town four days later, which is the really interesting part of the story. All of his guy friends were going away for the weekend so he came down to catch a ride with "Christopher" (previously introduced in The Midnight Groper). The three of us went to dinner and then Fred and I bough 4lokos and drank them in my room. We talked a lot about what he wanted and opened up about our sex life. So, I found out he thought the kissing was boring, too, and we decided to walk each other through what we both like. He also told me he thought it was really cool that I didn't shave, which I found interesting. Then he says he has never gone down on someone who didn't shave, so I'm thinking, "Umm does that mean you are going to???"

So after a while of making out and me trying to show him the real, crazy, sex loving, dominatrix me, he decides he is ready to go down on me. It was SOOOOO bad haha. But it only lasted for a few seconds because then he's like, "I'm sorry I can't stand the hair." I'm like, "What?? I trim it so it is super short and you shouldn't be licking the part with hair anyway!" So I have female blue balls (aka I'm frustrated and angry) and he says, "Well actually it is because I don't like the smell." So I'm like, "Well, it is a vagina. They don't smell good." And I took my blanket and slept on the couch. I was so angry that he was so rude!!!

This morning when I went back in there he apologized for upsetting me, but said he thought we were just being honest with each other. I said that he was right, but he didn't need to say everything on his mind because some things are truthful but hurt peoples feelings. Needless to say, we are NOT hooking up ever again.