and so it began...

I thought it only fitting to start at the birth of my sexual life, or at least the birth of sex that "counts" according to good folks like Bill Clinton. The loss of my virginity. For in America (and even more so elsewhere) a young girls virginity can be worth more than her life.

Unlike most of my teen aged peers I waited (and waited) to have intercourse. Oral sex, hand jobs, titty fucking, aside I was a virgin until I had graduated high school. But on the subject of "sex acts" vs. "SEX":why was I okay with giving hand jobs in the school bleachers, getting fingered under a blanket while watching a movie with my parents in the living room, or letting my boyfriend fuck my tits and cum on my face, while being opposed to "sex". I guess the obvious answer is pregnancy. But virginity for the sake of purity, Holiness, and goodness, I lost that long before I first had "sex". In some later entry I promise to go in depth into my early sexual experiences, as I know plenty of pervs who want to know what little 16 year old Jizzy was into, but this story is about losing my virginity so let me get back to it.

It was July, in Arizona July is so hot walking outside is like opening the oven and putting your head in. I drove down to Yuma Arizona to visit my boyfriend at his new college dorm. Now being that this was Arizona girls were not allowed to spend nights in the boys dorm so I had rented a room at a cheap Motel 6 down the street. So it was all set, too hot to go outside, cheap hotel room, young high school sweethearts trying to make it honest in the cruel world of adulthood.

We were both nervous. I'm not sure who was more so, but I, the practical one, braved the heat to walk to the 7-11 and get some condoms. I bought the Lifestyles box because I thought "I am alerting my life, might as well do it in style" and to this day I prefer Lifestyle condoms (although Durex makes a pretty good rubber too).

So we had a bed, condoms, and two out of control sex drives. We skipped the foreplay (we'd been doing that for years) to get right down to it. Fucking. What we had come so close to doing so many times before.

And... Fuck it hurt. Now I don't know what every ones first time is like but Jesus! I was not a fan. I now firmly recommend that every young girl loose it to some guy with a small dick to avoid the pain I felt that day. 9 inches long and as wide as a fist was too much for this little virgin. I think we fucked three times that weekend and each time I was making funny faces, not from orgasms but out of sheer pain.

If it wasn't for the soothing powers of the tongue my pussy would have rebelled and closed up shop.

So it was done, my virginity gone, lost in a Motel 6 to a boy with a big dick and a great tongue. The world of sex had been opened to me and I walked right through that door and never looked back.